There’s something about that period melancholy that I just love. It’s a time when I can just be, and not do. A time when I can listen and not talk. It’s the time of the month I am closest to my intuitive center and most aligned with my true north. Even better, it’s the time when I finally have all the answers.
Throughout the month I ask so many questions. Should I work with this client? Should I pay for this coach? Should I leave this home or move somewhere new? I ask questions both mild and terrifying and it can be torturous to not have the answers. Indecision stifles me, holding me back from the action.
But during our menstrual cycles we have unadulterated access to the wisdom of our bodies. Our emotions and bodily sensations alert us to what we truly desire. Yet so often we ignore it. We discredit our truth, writing it off as insanity and PMS. We blame our hormones for our anger or tears without taking a moment to wonder what’s causing our distress. Your body is sending you messages. All you have to do is listen.
I love keeping tabs on my emotions during my period as it opens me up to such insight. If I feel myself get weepy, I’ll write in my journal, “I feel sad because I’m missing my husband this week.” Later in the day I might write, “SCREW IT, if my face is going to break out anyway, I might as well have cake for dinner!” Without the veil of hormonal fluxuations keeping our spirits high, our menstrual cycle offers us a glimpse of the truth. We can feel the depths of our emotions and have access to a wealth of wisdom.
Believe it or not, I LOVE feeling this way. It’s so refreshing to feel my emotions so fearlessly and be able to let out a yell of frustration if I feel it. Part of the joy of being a woman is that we don’t have to be so put together all the time. This feminine journey isn’t about being perfect or feeling sultry and romantic. It’s about letting out a scream when you need to, feeling the pains of frustration, and allowing yourself the torment of complete and utter boredom.
It is from the depths of these emotions that new ones can form. Every fear, frustration, or heartache you feel in your period is a chance for joy, exhilaration, and love when it’s over. Each month we have the opportunity to tear down and rebuild. And the best part about it is, during our period we know exactly what we need to tear down. We need that wrecking ball in order to build something so beautiful and new. We need to kill off and let die those parts of us that just aren’t working so we can plant new seeds once we do.
It’s not always pretty. And sometimes it gets downright fierce. My last period left me hating just about everything. I didn’t want to cook, I was so darn tired of eating healthy, and I decided I never wanted to do yoga again. I was disinterested, disenchanted, and yoga was becoming downright boring to me. But you know what? Those emotions came from a very real and raw place in me and it was time to acknowledge that maybe what I was doing for fun just wasn’t that fun for me anymore. I listened. I realized I wanted to take ballet, and get back into the harp. I wanted my husband to cook, or really, just be around enough to be able to help out with the cooking. And I wanted to eat something delicious. I was in a cooking rut and eating sweet potatoes after sweet potatoes wasn’t going to get me through it.
It’s so good to feel this way, and so energizing to let yourself feel it. The more we stifle and ignore the emotions that plague us the more we don’t really experience the healing we need. We might need a tiny tweak, or a full on life makeover, but our body has the wisdom we need to get through it. Just listen.